{"product_id":"unmasked-my-life-solving-americas-cold-cases-9781250622792","title":"Unmasked: My Life Solving America's Cold Cases","description":"\u003cp\u003e\u003cb\u003eFrom the detective who found the Golden State Killer, a memoir of investigating America's toughest cold cases and the rewards-and toll-of a life solving crime.\u003c\/b\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eI order another bourbon, neat. This is the drink that will flip the switch. I don't even know how I got here, to this place, to this \u003ci\u003epoint\u003c\/i\u003e. Something is happening to me lately. I'm drinking too much. My sheets are soaking wet when I wake up from nightmares of decaying corpses. I order another drink and swig it, trying to forget about the latest case I can't shake. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eCrime solving for me is more complex than the challenge of the hunt, or the process of piecing together a scientific puzzle. The thought of good people suffering drives me, for better or worse, to the point of obsession. People always ask how I am able to detach from the horrors of my work. Part of it is an innate capacity to compartmentalize; the rest is experience and exposure, and I've had plenty of both. But I have always taken pride in the fact that I can keep my feelings locked up to get the job done. It's only been recently that it feels like all that suppressed darkness is beginning to seep out. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eWhen I look back at my long career, there is a lot I am proud of. I have caught some of the most notorious killers of the twenty-first century and brought justice and closure for their victims and families. I want to tell you about a lifetime solving these cold cases, from Laci Peterson to Jaycee Dugard to the Pittsburg homicides to, yes, my twenty-year-long hunt for the Golden State Killer. \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eBut a deeper question eats at me as I ask myself, at what cost? I have sacrificed relationships, joy--even fatherhood--because the pursuit of evil always came first. Did I make the right choice? It's something I grapple with every day. Yet as I stand in the spot where a young girl took her last breath, as I look into the eyes of her family, I know that, for me, there has never been a choice. \"I don't know if I can solve your case,\" I whisper. \"But I promise I will do my best.\" \u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eIt is a promise I know I can keep.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eBinding Type:\u003c\/b\u003e Hardcover\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eAuthor:\u003c\/b\u003e Holes, Paul\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublished:\u003c\/b\u003e 04\/26\/2022\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePublisher:\u003c\/b\u003e Celadon Books\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eISBN:\u003c\/b\u003e 9781250622792\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePages:\u003c\/b\u003e 288\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eWeight:\u003c\/b\u003e 1.05lbs\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003eSize:\u003c\/b\u003e 9.55h x 6.45w x 0.95d","brand":"Paul Holes","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":39735599628363,"sku":"9781250622792","price":28.99,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":false}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0021\/1697\/6715\/products\/img_ef9e3f6a-9bbe-482b-8330-2fbf9bc90d5f.jpg?v=1649849416","url":"https:\/\/blackbookstore.com\/products\/unmasked-my-life-solving-americas-cold-cases-9781250622792","provider":"Black Bookstore","version":"1.0","type":"link"}